You chose YELLOW HEART. The wild, wild west sprawls out in front of you. This is going to be a great time!
A cowboy approaches you. You notice he is wearing face paint.
Great… a rodeo clown. This isn’t the wild west… it’s just the circus all over again.
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I airbrushed this phone wallpaper by hand. I hope you like it!
In April of 2026, I created 50 boxes with my debut song on cassette, some handmade items, and instructions on how to leak the media online for those who chose to do so. It resulted in 500 views to this webpage within a week, with each participant balancing how many page views they left for others. After those 500 views occurred, the song was then scrubbed from the internet. It will reappear on streaming platforms eventually, but its important to me to manufacture a space, even if only for a small amount of time, where the only way to listen to it is by connecting with others.
This experiment was also an attempt to create scarcity around art via an online medium, and to allow marketing to be fun and place community first. I have personally devalued the media I consume as I take in more and more, so I wanted to find a way to prove to myself that data alone does not define how successful my project is!
Thanks for exploring with me. You can check out some bts content below and join the discord to find a leak of the song.
Is it tragic how
Best fit I own just feels so hand me down
I wear it out
Relapse in notes app when you see me now
Wish I was someone that you think about
I could be the shoulder that you wanna cry on
If it’s all uphill you’re the one I wanna die on
Yeah I just wanna text, wanna see you every night
I’m thinking we could fuck up both of our lives like
Please be the last one
And not just a lesson
The day you were born for
My security question
Yeah I want your loose ends
I want your worst sin
I want your blueprint
I want your blueprint
So what’s a boy gotta do to die happy
Cause I could fold your dirty laundry if you let me
And you can mess up all my makeup when you need me
I could be the shoulder that you wanna cry on
If it’s all uphill you’re the one I wanna die on
Yeah I just wanna text, wanna see you every night
I’m thinking we could fuck up both of our lives like
Please be the last one
And not just a lesson
The day you were born for
My security question
Yeah I want your loose ends
I want your worst sin
I want your blueprint
I want your blueprint
(x2)
So promise if we live that long
That we can stay together in a house on a hill
And I could try your lipstick on
And never get bored
I could go to bed bruised with you
Please be the last one
And not just a lesson
The day you were born for
My security question
Yeah I want your loose ends
I want your worst sin
I want your blueprint
I want your blueprint
(x2)
Anything
Say it
Say it
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Military Girl is a music, visual, and “community experience” art project with a large emphasis on making things by hand, both in revolt of artificial intelligence and broader social media “lanes” artists have been reduced to. Here is a taste of some of the processes I and my creative director Norma have used to make a few of the pieces you see / will see soon once Military Girl is officially launched.
HOW I MADE THE SPINNING TEETH
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This was the first visual element created for this project. I had the idea to use nail art charms to add lettering to a set of chatter teeth, which my creative director Norma then hand painted and assembled. Meanwhile, since I knew I wanted to make a jittery lo-fi gif of the teeth opening and closing, I knew we had to capture a close-to-pixel-perfect 360 video of the teeth in two positions: both open and closed. To do this, I built a small rotating platform using Lego bricks and a servo motor.
We filmed both positions, rotoscoped them using After Effects, and then cut the videos together and compressed it into a gif. I later used some of these frames as references for the airbrushed art I used to create the stickers found in the box. See more on that in the box section!
If you want to see more of any particular part of this or the other processes listed in this section please let me know via the discord or instagram DM’s. I’d love to know what you want to see more of!
HOW I MADE THE MUSIC VIDEO
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The upcoming visualizer is not out yet of course, but I wanted to show you a little of the process behind the image on the postcard in the box. It is a fully practical set made of cardboard, wooden dowels, plaster, and paint. The windows are created using semi-opaque multicolor plastic filing folders. 100% of this set is made with recycled materials. My creative director, Norma Lee, created most of this piece by hand and had the vision for it!
While she built this, I worked on a large scale version of the set using what set builders call flats. I made them out of 8×4 foot poly board, with small interlocking L brackets to stand them up. After painting and assembling them, I began work on a large scale version of the washing machine seen to the left of that same promo image in the box you received – it was achieved using a dog crate I found and a large piece of foam insulation. Lots more to share on this project, so be on the lookout for more on my social media once MGRL is launched.
HOW I MADE THE BOXES
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The boxes were made with mostly recycled components from a local creative reuse store. I used scotch tape to cover over the “write protection” of old cassettes I bought there in bulk, and recorded the song (as well as a hidden bonus interlude) in stereo on a high speed Pyle cassette deck. I also used the IBM typewriter I found at that store as part of the album art I made that can be seen on the cassette’s J-card inserts.
I found the squiggly stuffing at the reuse store as well and mixed the colors together to emulate a bowling alley carpet sort of look. The stickers were made by digital airbrushing over reference images Norma and I shot of the miniatures / set pieces including the chatter teeth, IBM, billboard (which is a bit of a teaser for a future release) and more! Lastly, the patches were made using a Brother SE700 sewing machine that we found on sale. Definitelyyyy the most tricky part of this box was learning how to get correct tension on the bobbin. The patches towards the end were a much better product than some of my first trials, lol. There is so much more to share on the creation of these, but wanted to give you a preliminary sneak peek!
A few months ago, in early November, I had a dream. In this dream, I was in a long, blue and white hallway with a door at the end. I knew that if I went through, I would be able to feel love the way I was meant to feel it. I took a step forward — and I heard a phone ring.
The voice on the other end told me that if I went through the door and wanted to feel that way, I would have to go to the dentist. It said I had teeth that needed fixing. And, if I only got one fixed, or two, or even three — it wouldn’t be good enough. If I wanted to see what was on the other side, I needed every bone in my mouth where it belonged. Every room I stepped into was going to be different, and every room was there to fix a different part of my gums, incisors, canines or molars if I let it. The voice said that something from each room was bound to follow me into the next.
“Is that good… or bad?” I asked. I didn’t get a reply.
Before I had that dream, I had been trying to create something in the same vein as my previous project – something I was used to. I had left that project in months prior to pursue personal health and growth, but I still found myself revolving around the same chords, the same melodies, and the same colors as felt comfortable and familiar. I dream very vividly every night, but this one woke me up in every sense.
The story that connects my past life as Negative 25 to my life now as Military Girl begins with this dream. I have memories, seasons, past lives, regrets and more that felt disconnected, shameful, fractured, too traumatic or too fuzzy to recall. I grew up in a horse barn, moved out at 16 and performed in a theatre for a living, and have lived through many more bizarre and painful things than I felt were ever going to be approachable or attractive to anyone online. I used humor in an attempt to cope or appear charming, and I buried the rest for years, even from myself.
So, I began creating in an attempt to glue these puzzle pieces together, using whatever I could in order to find new ways to pursue art with my hands, eyes, and ears. I collected kids toys to sample and repitch, pieces of trash and old tech to build with, and began therapy to connect with myself and others in all forms I had been evading for so long.
In the first few weeks of this, I wrote my first love song. Security Question is about meeting my now forever life partner, and the way I felt and still feel about her. I was afraid to commit to someone, especially out loud, for a very long time (a mentor of mine in my early career warned me many times to never show my relationships publicly, as you are then no longer as viable for the public eye). But once I met her, I was willing to “fuck up both of our lives”.
This song serves as an open act of rebellion against the part of myself that was afraid I would not make it in the music industry if I ever committed to someone, and to the idea that happiness comes at the expense of success. It echoes the journey I have begun on accepting my most authentic gender expression and identity within the context of relationship, with the freedom to exist outside of traditional structured norms. It is the first room, the first tooth, and the first song of this new project.
Welcome to the very beginning of Military Girl.